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bingo_bolger_baggins) wrote2005-05-20 11:24 pm
bingo_bolger_baggins) wrote2005-05-20 11:24 pm
And Then There Were Three: Bingo Bolger-Baggins
It's hard to believe that on this day, three years ago, I came home to the Shire and my little Pantry Smial. Little did I know that a year later I would walk out of that Pantry Smial into a glorious party in the Backside Smial and be sharing the brand new Back End with my friends and family. And you know, I'm still having a hard time recalling this time last year, though I do think it also concerned warm feelings regarding our little home. Perhaps it was during one of my koalified episodes. Hmmm. Home, I suppose I'm thinking about it a great deal lately and, in the finest display of obsessive-compulsive behavior MESPT has yet beheld, linked to every thought of it in my last entry.
So here I sit in bed, in a place that is not my home and yet so home-like feeling now. Dear Gary. And if home is where the heart is, then home I am, for friends dear to my heart have joined us here today. I hope my scars and bruises don't frighten them too much. At least the wounds are much better than they were. I wonder how long their trip took and if it was much trouble to find this place, since I haven't taken that trip myself. I feel a bit silly staying here in bed since I am so well, obviously, but I suppose I should stay off my feet still. I won't be well if I tear my wounds, will I? Then who knows when I'll be ready to travel and see everyone.
Uncle Sennie, Melbie, Celly, and--I can't believe it--Elanorelle! I hear them talking. Now when are they coming up? How much patience do they think this poor hobbit can muster? Really!
So here I sit in bed, in a place that is not my home and yet so home-like feeling now. Dear Gary. And if home is where the heart is, then home I am, for friends dear to my heart have joined us here today. I hope my scars and bruises don't frighten them too much. At least the wounds are much better than they were. I wonder how long their trip took and if it was much trouble to find this place, since I haven't taken that trip myself. I feel a bit silly staying here in bed since I am so well, obviously, but I suppose I should stay off my feet still. I won't be well if I tear my wounds, will I? Then who knows when I'll be ready to travel and see everyone.
Uncle Sennie, Melbie, Celly, and--I can't believe it--Elanorelle! I hear them talking. Now when are they coming up? How much patience do they think this poor hobbit can muster? Really!
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*holds him as closely but gingerly and nods, touched by the simple act of kindness from someone she had never met* She does sound like quite the lass, Bingo. *pulls away just far enough to study his face and asks gently, so as not to venture too far into a topic he might not be ready to discuss* Did you just meet her?
*laughs softly as she considers his question, as it sure felt a lot longer than an a day since she'd been back* As for myself, I arrived only yesterday.
((Ahahaha sounds as if he's been getting enough, um, attention as of late, already. ;D))
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*turns back to Elly, enjoying having his friends around him* Yes, we met her in the woods. And if she didn't come along, I wouldn't be alive now. I owe her my life. She fought off the Warg with a pitchfork, you know.
Really? So you've been traveling long by sea and by land--you certainly don't look travel-worn, dearheart--it must be a trick you've learned from the Elves. How is little Ana and G-g then?
((Ahahahha! Aaaaaaaand lovingit! (-; ))
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*eyes widening in surprise* Wow. *turns over this new information about their host in her mind a moment before speaking again, her voice filled with admiration for the elder Midgebane sister* You have been truly blessed, then, with such a friendship. And doubly so, for her to have entered your life when you needed a friend the most.
*goes quiet for a moment, before continuing with a bright smile* Oh, both trips went smoothly, so that definitely helped. My stomach's been a bit off, but that's about it. And they're both *brief hesitation* they're both fine, thank you for asking. I am hoping to be able to bring Ana back to the Shire sometime soon, but I'd like to get my bearings here first before I do so.
((Well good for him. ;D Lady knows the poor dear's been patiently waiting long enough. ;D))
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*gives her a wondering look as she mentions her stomach and connects that with her slight hesitation, nods* Oh, that's grand that you will bring her! I can't wait to see her again. But I'm glad to have you here free of guardian duties for a while, so I don't have to fight with such adorable competition for time with you. How does it feel to be back in Middle-earth?
((He has! (-; It's taken time to get all his Happy faces out, and they so much more become him than Angst Face.(-; ))
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I think we ought to see if Garnet and the children could use some help. They're probably both getting food ready and preparing where we're going to stay. Catch you in a bit.
*takes Melba's hand and walks out of the room, taking hold of Isengar's arm as they pass* Come with us, Uncle Sennie. *leads them out and downstairs*
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*turns back to Bingo, picking up on their conversation where they left off, squeezing his hand gratefully for reminding her that her own friendship was valuable as well*
*interprets his questioning look at her mention of feeling unwell as the thought she might be pregnant again* Oh, Valar no. *shakes her head and laughs, with the slightest edge of sorrow to her voice* No.
*recovers herself* But yes. It is nice to have a bit of freedom from parental duties, if only for a short while. Although I do miss her terribly.
*pauses for a moment to consider his question* It feels... strange. Like I haven't quite been able to get a handle on how I fit in anymore. Does that sound odd? *smiles* Or is that the usual experience of someone who's been away from home for an extended period of time?
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*turns back to Elly, squeezes back and covers her hand with his other hand smiles at her sharing the recollection, then nods* I know you miss her terribly. *shakes his head* No, that's not odd at all. It does take time, dearheart. I remember how odd and out of place I felt when I came back to the Shire 3 years ago after living out east. So give it a little time. I'm sure it's quite a transition from being out West. *smiles reassuringly at her*
*pauses* So . . . the Elf is there . . . and you are here. What's up with that, dearheart? You can tell me.
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*inhales deeply* Speaking of which.. *releases the rest of her breath with a quiet sigh, dropping her eyes to her lap*
*hesitantly at first* He and I... parted amicably shortly before I left. *returns her eyes to his, and in quiet acknowledgment of what they both know to be true* It's been a while in coming. *swallows before continuing* But it's all right. Some days it hurts more, especially if
I'm feeling vulnerable to begin with, but other days I'm OK with it, really. *small smile* I've managed to let go of most of my regrets.
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Oh Elanorelle. I am sorry. *squeezes her hand between his* And I'm sure it hurts at times like, well, like fire, if it''s still that recent. Don't be surprised if those regrets stick around a bit longer to ambush you at times. They will come and go in waves, at least that's been my experience. *watches her for cues on how best to support her*
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*smiles, grateful for his show of support as well as the opportunity to finally speak on the matter* I know, thank you. *sad smile* Well as you know, I've been carrying around some of them for quite a while. *her eyes go far away for a moment before returning to his*
*smiles softly* And you, Bingo? *squeezes his hand* What has been going on in your life since the last time we spoke?
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Well, last we spoke (http://www.livejournal.com/users/elanorgamgee/120383.html#cutid1) was in the fall, in our odd way, and I had recently gone through the Blue Fire. Since then, I have gotten back most of my memories--there are blurs of time, but then, who doesn't have those anyway except those gifted with extraordinary recollection abilities? So I know now I walked the Blue Fire because of my bond with Iorhael and my inability to manage my own pain at his comings and goings, and break away, as I needed to. *sighs* I have seen him since.
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*nods, listening, still trying to regain the handle on her emotions*
*clasping his hands in hers* I'm so sorry, Bingo. *adding to clarify* Sorry that you ever experienced so much pain as to have your memories erased in order to deal with it. *struggles to keep at bay the tears that threaten to return with her grief at the sorrow and heartache they both experienced in their respective relationships*
*asks hopefully* But the process did work for you, though?
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Well, he knew was getting ready to join The Elven Home for Assisted Living--having a few thousand millenia on you, you think he would have been more responsible.*bites back his thoughts knowing they would upset her more than help* And I'm glad you decided that you do have a right to be happy, dearheart. *nods, reaches to pull her into a hug, tearing up at her pain**purses his lips, nods* It did. I think I needed that space to retrieve my heart from him. *looks at her* My sea-crossing was in here. *taps his head* And do you know, he wound up telling me himself, the darn fool! *chuckles with a rueful smile*
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¬_¬*nods emphatically, feeling that she hasitalicisedspoken enough on the matter for one day, and allows him to pull her into an embrace**nods again and smiles at their shared point of reference* Yes.
*incredulous, she pulls away in order to look him in the eyes* He didn't...
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*nods* I'm afraid so. So that went about as well as you could expect, I suppose. *rolls his eyes* That was shortly after you and I talked in the fall. I haven't seen Iorhael since, but I did sense his presence for a while recently, so I think he has visited Middle-earth.
*shakes his head* And I think I've come to terms with his not being a fully formed being. I hope he knows he has a friend in me always, and I have the distance in myself I need now, but it won't be without strain, of course. Who knows when our paths will cross again.
*shifts his hip, looking at her with a thoughtful smile* Who knew that when our paths crossed again, it would be out here near Bree?
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*nods as she listens, not knowing quite how to comment on the idea of Iorhael's possible reappearance in Middle-Earth, so she focuses on the ways in which Bingo has learned to be able to protect himself instead* I'm glad that you were able to find that distance, Bingo. *smiles softly* And to have made enough peace with the past in order to consider yourself a friend to him, after everything you've been through. That's a very difficult road to travel.
*returns his smile, but with a slightly puzzled look* I'm not sure I understand, Bingo.
*noticing his shifting* Can I help adjust your pillows or try some other way to find a more comfortable position for you, dear?
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*shrugs* Well, only time will tell on that, I suppose.
*furrows his brow* You and I. Meeting here, outside Bree. Well, Southlinch, to be more precise. And this farm south of Southlinch, to be moreso. *chuckles* You know, when we both came from west of here. You much further west. And I wasn't planning to be here. *laughs* This is all to say that I'm no prognosticator.
No, I've got it. Thank you, dearheart.
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*reaches over and takes his hand carefully* As with all things, Bingo. *gentle smile* But it's also important to remember how far you've come.
*nods* I had figured you meant that, but I wsasn't sure if you referring to something else as well. Like how we first met when you were staying at Bag End recuperating from... *furrows her brow* How did you hurt your ankle? My memory from that time is a bit dodgy.
*nods* All right. *smiles* Just let me know if there's anything I can do.
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*squeezes her hand* Yes, that goes for both of us.
*laughs, raises an eyebrow* Are you subtly implying that I'm accident prone? *smiles* I fell out (http://www.livejournal.com/users/bbolger_baggins/3069.html) of a tree.
Do keep in mind that I wrote that entry before the extended edition came out, dearheart, and the mun didn't have linking skills then to offer me so I didn't link to the picture the title of the entry is referring to, but good . . . now I can get her to . . . hooray!Oh, you already have, Elanorelle, by being here.
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*laughs and shakes her head* No, I was just mixing up that time with when you returned from Mordor, and I think that's where the 'East' part came into it and.. *laughs again* Well, it made sense in my head. You know how strange memory can be sometimes.
*quietly, with an adoring smile* The same goes here. I cannot tell you how much I've missed speaking with you.
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Though I do find it interesting that losing one's memory has become all the rage of late, or so I've been told.(-;*takes both her hands in his, smiling at her fondly* I've missed being with you. I'm so glad you're back, dearheart.
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Well you've always been a bit of a trendsetter, dear. ;D*returns his smile* Thank you. That means so much to me, Bingo, especially at a time when I feel as if everything else in my life has fallen apart.